day 4: without Facebook

It is kind of nice that no one really reads this. It's like a personal journal but I won't put everything in this but after all, it's the internet. There are definitely some things that I miss. The things people post about their lives. It's like a passive connection to see that people are having a good time living life. I am not. I work 2 jobs right now. I am not that happy. The biggest thing is that Negative comments don't do any good. Things that are true. Is my only function to ...? Are you happy? I don't know. Do I want to find out? I don't know. Will it only get me more depressed? As you can see, a lot of questions. Well, it has to start some where. What to choose. It was nice gesture from Byron at the picnic. We will see if he follows through. I wander this life and alone. Where does my help come from? I have not done any type of fellowship or devotions for quite awhile. I wait for people to care about me. Have what I have done in the past and near present caused them to all go away? Do I alienate them so I can be alone to make myself more depressed? What step should I take first? Make a simple list and stick to it every day (1) Don't leave my clothes all over (2) take out the trash (3) clean the dishes (4) Do the laundry (5) clean the basement (6) show my wife I love her. (7) tell the kids I love them (8) ask that they do something for the family around the house (9) let a friend know I am here and ask them about their day