Wednesday after

It may seem crazy. but I just met you. maybe you read this. How does one alter or direct a teenager into action? I do remember when I did things solely for the benefit of self. It is very rewarding to do things for others for sake of helping them out. Are your thirsty? Stop by my house. I will get you water. Hunger, come over for supper. place, i can help you with that. Hope to be better. Treat others with kind words and deeds. It will come back and the friendship may or may not form but at least the benefit outways the alternative. I don't where I am going but I do remember where I have been. I hope to remember and revive my life to start living towards the purpose in this .. life

on Tuesday

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oeEUWAknI30

one of my favorites for this day of the week. So I don't know what direction I am headed with this thing. No one on Facebook has really tried to call or email me. Byron said at the picnic we need to get together but he hasn't called. Not banking on that. Today I planned out my lunch phone call. It lasted about 5 minutes. probably the longest we have talked without arguing about something I screwed up. Here's my POV. I don't know if I can tell when I have been rude to some one because they have never told me face to face. It's hard to confrontational to people. Also, it's point out again that I lie. It's not so much I lie. If I feel a conflict is going to happen about something, I like to avoid conflicts even if I create them(so I have  been told). I like harmony yet have a hard time living in harmony. off to living the purpose of this... life

day 4: without Facebook

It is kind of nice that no one really reads this. It's like a personal journal but I won't put everything in this but after all, it's the internet. There are definitely some things that I miss. The things people post about their lives. It's like a passive connection to see that people are having a good time living life. I am not. I work 2 jobs right now. I am not that happy. The biggest thing is that Negative comments don't do any good. Things that are true. Is my only function to ...? Are you happy? I don't know. Do I want to find out? I don't know. Will it only get me more depressed? As you can see, a lot of questions. Well, it has to start some where. What to choose. It was nice gesture from Byron at the picnic. We will see if he follows through. I wander this life and alone. Where does my help come from? I have not done any type of fellowship or devotions for quite awhile. I wait for people to care about me. Have what I have done in the past and near present caused them to all go away? Do I alienate them so I can be alone to make myself more depressed? What step should I take first? Make a simple list and stick to it every day (1) Don't leave my clothes all over (2) take out the trash (3) clean the dishes (4) Do the laundry (5) clean the basement (6) show my wife I love her. (7) tell the kids I love them (8) ask that they do something for the family around the house (9) let a friend know I am here and ask them about their day

Facebook: without it

Well, this is day 3 without logging on to Facebook.how I interact with people. I need to be able to socialize without being awkward. this may not make sense to you but this is for me. a journal of how I can be better and create a group of friends that I can connect a couple times with each month. What is this suppose to look like? so here I will try and try and try until I get it right. Another smaller goal, change from being an introvert to an extrovert. See you later, mashed potatoer.

What will you do

i sure it is frustrating running around the same circle to realize 'deja vu' you are back to where to started.

What will you do when nothing changes? Will you allow yourself to be changed?

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8 months of inactivity?

I am one of the masses. Start something and stop. Revisit and rehash. You want something clever, create it yourself. Hey, I knew you would look elsewhere and maybe even stumbled upon this. One does not stumble upon purpose. The purpose has been set. An old proverbs states, ' A man's heart devises his way, but the Lord directs his steps.' A simpleton's approach? Note the preparation required in this proverb. Do you wait for someone else to set the goal? Set a goal and let God do the rest? Grab a fishing rod and expect to catch fish? You still need the line, the hook, the bait, and a little practice. You want to be a leader. An opportunity may come your way but have you started the preparations so that God can direct you to step into his greater purpose. If you desire fame and recognition, this servant life is NOT for you. This is what a follower of Christ Jesus is called to. Not some Benny Hinn self-first lifestyle. God is first and the rest will follow.

kindness and gentleness

I don't even know if I can through God's mercy obtain these qualities in which I need.
Those around me may say I lack these things. They would be correct.
A gentle answer to a difficult situation. Kindness to those who may not deserve this type of response.

Mold me
Make me
Embold me
Take me as I am